I need a break...from life

Probably I've never realised it but I think I really need a break. Yes, I deserve it. I never realised how responsibilities and burdens have been wearing me off. It's not that I'm complaining but at times, I feel tired.
How would it feel like to have no responsibilities? Well, of course I don't mean being irresponsible but having no commitment and no duty that one must perform/fulfill. How stupid I am, everyone understands that simple question. Nevermind that.

My mind hasn't really stop thinking. I don't want it to be active but, thoughts keeping rushing in.
How would it feel like to be carefree? I can totally generate tonnes of questions. I just couldn't put my mind to rest currently. For instance:

Caring for others more than self, is it a good thing? What harm can it bring?
Being selfish, will it be beneficial for myself? Again, what harm can it bring?
Is there perfection? Have I been living in a world where perfection exist?
I always live by this motto "Nobody is perfect" but have I really lived up to that?
Is there time for me to think for myself? Is it the time to do so now?

I'm certainly not fretting and I'm not seeking for any answer to those questions either. I am positive towards life and I want to be positive. Yes, positivity is good for life.

I've heard from friends, those who have known me long enough (not one but many enough to bring my attention into this matter) commented me being, well, how should I put this... "keeping-all-to-herself girl"? Is that a bad character/attitude (or how should I categorize it?)?

It is not that I am being negative.
It's certainly not that I don't appreciate friendship,
It's not that I don't want to share and
I certainly don't mean to be secretive and all that,
but I reckon is the way I think, the way I see life and not forgetting experience(s) from the past.
Why should I burden others with my problems or even bored my friends with my boring life events?

Another reason is, I'm brought up in a family filled with gossipers, not just any ordinary gossipers but those who will make matters spicier. I would like to stress out that family doesn't mean DIRECT family, they could be none-blood-related members. You see, 1 and 1.0 are both similar values but 1 and 10 are both very different values not mentioning 100, 1000, 100000. When people gossips, some may add just a little more extra details for the effect but some just add in too much details that could mean harm to the people they are talking about. So, what I'm trying to say is, when a matter = 1 and you add a lil' bit of spice to make it 1.0 or even 1.01, 1.0001, it may have no effect but when you add another 0 (not a decimal point) next to the 1, it's a totally different story. I got this understanding from my dad when I was younger, when I was still naive, trusting people that there are still nice people around me. How can I share when my story/problem which I conveyed will be broadcasted? So, I would say, living in such an environment has molded me to what I am. I'm just used to being "keeping-all-to-self".. Old Habits Die Hard *winks* don't they?

P/S: Don't you think it's always easier to let the cat out of the bag than keeping it within as the cat may struggle, aggressive or just simply being too cute to be hidden. Lol, is that why "when a secret is made to known" called? (By the way, just digressing with my just-came-up thoughts...again -.-")

I miss you Sun Goddess (edited) now known as Sparkling Sherry

I suddenly feel like I miss my newly named buddy, Sun Goddess (When I'm happy) aka. Sanitary modeste (don't know where that come from).

Ham choi chu yuk..

Also missing, Mel B the bikini babe whom is in Langkawi, probably sun bathing in her pretty bikini at this very moment ^.^ I want your sexy pics. babe!

Mel & Me

Wendy's Burger

This isn't the first time I had Wendy's, I'm going back to try out their other menu variety as I always read reviews from blogs recommending several dishes from Wendy's. So, our first try out was before my exam and another time was after. I've been trying out new items whereas Dave kept going back for there "Shrimp Supreme". In our first try out, we ordered their "shrimp supreme" of course and "premium fish fillet". Our side orders are none other than their "Cheese N Cheese baked potatoes" as well as "vanilla frosty". My brother personally prefers their shrimp burger and baked potatoes. Unfortunately, I did not take any photos back then.

I must say their "shrimp supreme" is one of my favourite as it is unique and delicious. We can even see shrimps within the patty, soft and tender, so yummy~~~! However, their "premium fish fillet" was OK for me. Probably they should add more lettuce & tomatoes in it to give the burger more Ommmph! Lol. Overall, their burger was nice as their bun is soft. I'm very choosy when it comes to burgers. I don't like burger buns that are too dry, too hard and those that are too filled or too loose till each bite can cause large amount of crumbles to fall out. Also, the patties shouldn't be overcooked and not too dried up as it will irritate my throat and make me cough my lungs out. Oh ya.. not forgetting the thickness. (*hard to make my business???) Haha, I need gravy and sauces when it comes to food. The baked potato was not bad. However, I definitely cannot finish a whole potato myself. Frosty was a bit too sweet to last me the whole cup if you get what I mean. It's like, *first sip* wow! not bad, *tenth sip* hmm.. still not bad but can feel the sweetness lingers on your tongue and then towards the end, feel sick drinking it. Probably I can't take in too much of sweet milky drinks. It was more like a milk shake to me. I still prefer Julius Orange milk shake.

In our second trip there, we ordered again their "shrimp supreme" and this time, I wanted to try out their "1/4 pound single" (beef). Their beef was nice. Aromatic and tender enough to chew through without force and it wasn't dry at all. I like the thickness of their beef patty; not too thick and not too thin. It was juicy in the inside and there were enough vege which I like. No wonder beef burgers are their signature dish. This time, we didn't order any special drinks, just their soft drinks which comes together with their combo set and we added on another of their specialty "Chili". I was tempted to try this dish out as I sighted many tables had it. I thought it was spicy but it tasted more like pasta. I sighted tomatoes and it was rich in minced beef. Maybe it will taste good on spaghettis.

"1/4 pound single"


"Shrimp Supreme" which comes in a silver wrapping


The sight of shrimps in the patty


Fries and "Chili"

*Pardon me for my photography skills as I'm still learning on how to take shots and lightings and angles and settings and everything.

One thing which I've noticed during my second trip back to Wendy's was, their speed of serving food was much faster though it still can be better. Previous trip was way tooooo loooooong and the second trip was not that loooooooong. I guess the waiting is for those who orders their shrimp burgers. Oh ya, their fries were to my liking, crispy and not too salty. Their drinks come in larger amount than other fast food restaurants of the similar size I think, not sure though, I need to bring a measuring cylinder or something. Also, their restaurant was a bit tiny as it was packed and hard for customers to reach the inner tables. Imagine if a family bring a baby pram or bowlers who brings bowling bags? Those interested can always visit Sunway Pyramid to try out Wendy's. It's situated at the same level as McDonalds & KFC.

Goodbye!!

Results aren't release yet but I sure hope/pray hard/yearn to complete my course so that I won't have to return to Uni anymore for studies. I've actually spent 3 years in this Uni. from where their campus was in Sunway College till when they have their own independent campus. Glancing back to previous semesters, I can still feel the panic and rush for tonnes of reports, assignments and online quizzes from back then. During those moments, we always complained on the massive work load we were pumped with. I still remember Prof. Pua told us that, the hard work we apply will be very helpful for our future and he even added don't be surprise that we'll not get used to being TOO FREE in the future. Actually, I'm feeling the effect now *lol* so restless and I keep searching for things to do, books to read, etc.

Will I miss my uni? Will I miss my uni life?
Probably I will because for the past 3 years, almost everyday, my life is spent in the uni. This is where I know most friends when I came down to KL from my home town. There are lecturers that were really nice to us and of course some were quite strict (I won't use bad/evil). Overall, I guess I enjoyed my uni. life.

It's sad that now I realised I didn't take photos of the uni and friends from the previous to the current campus. I only managed to take few photos of the uni's main entrance and library area. It was quite embarrassing when I tried taking the main entrance pic. as the guard was looking at me as if I'm doing some spy work. So, I manage to take only the side view of the main entrance.

This is where I enter my uni. since mid of 2007 (Year 3 Sem 1)


Bluey blue


Learning centre aka Library & computer lab.
This pic. was taken in a hurry, that's why it was blur.

I didn't have any lab pictures as I didn't thought of that till recently. The classrooms, lecture halls, library and labs are freaking cold. They must have installed a very large horse power air-cond./central unit. Everybody complains about the freaking low temp. in class and towards the middle of lectures, people have switch the air-cond. off, leaving it off would be too stuffy. So, it's very hard to cater to everybody's different needs. :)

Nothing much to talk about the canteen/cafe. The food variety isn't that much and it's pricey actually. There is also a bookshop in the campus and a student lounge where students can hang out and relax themselves.

Where is justice?

I was chatting with my friend, Sonia when she sent me a link of an online local news, reporting a 17-year old girl was forced to perform oral sex prior to being raped. Rape cases are indeed common even in our country. IMO, of course it is as our country's penalty given to such criminals are not heavy enough.. fine, jail, caned? However, this time, what I read in the online news was even more shocking. The assault was committed by a POLICEMAN and the crime was performed in the police station itself in Selangor. Another source stated that the CRIMINAL was suspended from work currently for investigation. I sure hope he will get what he deserves... BURN & ROT in hell after suffering massive pain in his penis. This news has really ignites my ANGER.

Being a COP means that he/she should be aware of the meaning and the act of CRIME and also the charges as well as the penalty given if proven guilty (pardon me for the type of words I use as I'm not familiar with the world of LAW). IMO, upon knowing and still commit such act should be charged double, triple or more times than of civilians that committed the similar act. Such embarrassing shameful act committed by the police force can shake the trust of civilians. Instead of protecting civilians, they are committing crimes themselves. People may have to think twice before even going to the police station to lodge a report. Criminals or potential criminals may think that even the police force are doing such crime and why not them? Worst is if the proven guilty policeman is given only small penalty. Question of such may arise, why can he do it and not I?

I sure hope there is still justice in this country and I hope the authority will act accordingly to prevent such cases to repeat. The authorities and police force should not misuse their power (authority). They should charge/punish proven criminals accordingly and not demand them to perform unethical acts which encourages more crimes (e.g. bribery, sexual assault, slavery, etc.) I'm not in a position to condemn or comment on such issues but I sure hope people will think of what the victims had gone through and potential-innocent-to-be victims have to suffer and go through.

Astrology & Flowers

I was doing some searching as usual on the internet and at the same time, searching for meanings of flowers as well as its colours. Then, I saw "Astrology Floral" and so I clicked on it. I was excited for a moment as I thought I saw my birth sign flower is TULIPS! However, another glance and I saw my actual birth sign flower is Lily which I think is not too bad. At least it's not Chrysanthemum :) Aries has my favourite flower which is the zodiac sign just before mine.


Stubborn, headstrong, fierce are the commonly known characteristics of Taureans. Is that really true of Taureans? I hope not :) In Wikipedia, Taurus is considered as a feminine negative sign. I wonder if the astrologer or person who sets that character onto Taurus were being dumped or disheartened by one before *lol*. So unfair to Taurus right? Anyways, nevermind about that.

As far as I'm concern, there are certain characteristics a zodiac sign holds but I never heard that zodiac signs has identifiable physical traits. Astrologers believed that Taureans will tend to have a full, square or long face with small ears, large rounded and dimpled chin, sometimes with prominent foreheads, short/pointy and turned-up nose, large & expressive eyes, well-shaped lips, small & even teeth and thich, curly hair. Lol, I don't see myself having all those traits. Well, not everybody believes in astrology and I'm certainly not one.

Back to the main point, astrology and flowers. Magestic lilies cater to the Taurus' appreciation for nature's exquisite beauty with flowers. It is believed that lilies will indulge Taurus' romantic and sensual side with their form and fragrant. Personally, for lilies, I think white looks the best.
The few species of Lilies among many:

Calla lily, I like this one because it looks neat.

Lily of the Valley, I personally think this sp. of lily is very cute and pretty.

Lilium longiflorum (the common lilies we usually see)
*Pictures taken from the internet

Another site stated that lavender and lilac is suitable for Taurus. In my opinion, I think it doesn't matter which flower cater's a zodiac sign but more importantly depending on individuals as tastes varies among each other.

Girls day out

It felt like decades ever since I go on a shopping spree with Mel. That's because of the hectic schedule we both had during our "uni. life". Lol, I'm already saying it as if this is my final semester but I sure hope so. The official results aren't out yet. Anyway, Mel decided on Pyramid to accommodate me.

We had lunch at Sakae (again for me) as I really love their salmon sushi. This is all credited to Mel as she's my mentor in eating salmon nigiri. We even ordered more than we can fill up our tiny stomach. I took some food shots of what we ate.

Salmon nigiri

Kakiege & Fried Tofu

Soft Shell Crab

Mel's Katsu Curry Don (which she ended up forcing me to eat part of the chicken)

All these cost us around Rm19-20 per pax. Currently they are having a Teatime Buffet Promotion where people can enjoy as many green and pink plates as they want to at various prices. Check out their outlets or websites for more details.

After having lunch, we continued on with our shopping. Vowing not to buy anything but I still ended up buying something. How can we girls resist the SALES temptation?! Lol, Mel picked some clothes for me to try and I loved most of them. Feeling a lil' guilty, I bought among the cheapest options I had. How I wish I could get all of them. Both of us did not went home empty handed. Mel got what she needs and of course NOT ONLY what she needs but more than that. As for me, I just got 1 item and went home with a filled stomach. :)

Before we headed home, we managed to capture some photos of ourselves at the back of Pyramid.


One of the few photos we had that I love

Facing Sunway Lagoon and hotel


*Camwhoring* while waiting for Mel in the changing room.

At last...

It has been years since I've been wanting a handbag for myself. Each time I see girls with nice handbags, I would look at them with envious eyes. So, my bf ended up giving me a sum (very decent amount) of money to buy myself a bag. If not mistaken, it should be last year or was it 2 years ago???. Anyway, it was supposed to be my birthday present but I just don't feel like spending such amount on a bag itself especially when I'm not working yet. The money was in the bank rotting. *lol* I know, I'm stingy, kedekut, kiam siap, ku hon... name it. Bah!!

On the year which my bf gave me the money, I spotted this limited edition bag from Tous, but when I really decided to get the bag, it was not on the rack anymore. However, no regrets. I later targeted bags from several brands but ended up not buying anything. Still, I haven't set my eyes on any bags yet at that moment.

Last weekend, I went to Pavillion with my bf with the intention of having dinner only at Sakae. It was an outing meant to be a form of relaxation after some sleepless nights due to my finals. After dinner, a glance at our time on the handphone, my bf suggested that it's still early and I could still stroll around the mall. So, off we go. Again, I saw girls carrying fancy nice handbags and I blurted out a question, "Where is the handbag you promised to help me look for?" I told Dave I wanted a more mature looking bag as I'm considered to have finished studying. I also said I want a solid looking bag, not anymore of those bags I'm carrying. Lol. Without complain, he brought me into many shops and he really helped me pick but still, we ended up not buying any as I don't like any of it. Since it was 2 days before my last paper, I told him that we don't need to search anymore as I still need to revise as much as I could. Off we go, heading to the lift. Anyone familiar with Pavillion will surely know which lift I'm about to mention. Walking pass Fila, Dave said "Look, this handbag is nice" and so I turn my head towards the display at the glass and I instantly like it. I was so excited and I went into the shop. My expectation for the bag was around Rm200 plus or minus and since Fila was having sales, I thought it wouldn't be too expensive. There I go, asking the sales person to get me the bag, then I asked the price of it. I was shocked!!! However, I acted cool then I ask the sales person to bring me another one which by the look definately looks cheaper and I was right, it was 4 times cheaper. Lol, I told my bf, "Nah, I'll look around for another bag, let me consider" saying out loud. He persuaded me to buy it but still, I rejected. So, again, we headed towards the lift and into the car.

I felt so uncomfortable and keep thinking and thinking and still thinking, balancing the pros & cons of purchasing the bag. I love the bag but it's the price that matters though I have the budget way enough for it. However, I never bought such thing at that price. So, I kept bombarding Dave with suggestions, comments, questions, doubts etc. etc. I finally said, "I want the bag" as I don't want to end up feeling disappointed and sad like how I experienced before for a top I didn't purchase from Forever 21. How sad I was, as Melissa, my buddy witnessed before. Dave then suggested we'll go get the bag the very next day. I was restless the whole night, thinking what if the bag is gone?.

According to the sales person, this bag is a limited edition bag and it's material is unlike any other Fila bag which explains why it's damn bloody expensive. Also, the material is similar to the Fila Golf line and it's imported from Korea itself. I'm not sure about other shops in Malaysia, but Pavillion's branch got only 12 of such bag. That was why I was restless the whole night that day having known they only have 1 piece left for the colour I want. This is what I think is called Love At First Sight.

The very next morning, at around 11, Dave drove me down to Pavillion again, I rushed up to the Fila stall and I guess the sales person recognized me. He was smiling as if knowing I had not had a goodnight rest thinking about the bag. Hmm, I'm pretty sure that I was the first customer that day. I told him "Get me that bag, I want it!!" Anxiously, I got my bag and had a check on it before purchasing it officially. Nothing's wrong with it, so I pay the $$. Finally, I got my bag.. and I really love it.

The weird part is, to me at least, things that I plan to purchase/have will end up not having/purchasing one. I always find that when I said I need a bag and attempting to hunt for one with the girls, I'll end up buying something else and not a bag. This time, it was accidental and not well planned. At least I consider it quite spontaneous. I don't care what you all think about the bag, but I love it. Here's the picture of it.

<3 Cuties <3

Now that I'm so free.. I have so much to post. So, I've decided to post about a cute fella. Firstly, my friend, Marcus got himself a daughter, probably adopt is more appropriate. He got himself a sugar glider which he gives massive care, attention and effort in adapting the pet to himself. In no time, he manage to make himself with his glider inseparable. Lol.. so cute just thinking about it. Anyway, he's now away back home and Judy is with a pet sitter. What he learned about his baby is that instead of sleeping at its own designated place, it sleeps on his shirt which he had worn and left it in the cage before leaving to his hometown. How close a pet can be with its owner. How sweet, so adorable.

Look at Judy runs and how cute she is <3>


I hope the clip works :)

I learned from Marcus that sugar gliders are nocturnal which is why now he has to wake up at 4am to tend to her. I didn't even know they actually barks or make sounds loud enough to be able to wake a person up. I'm yet to hear Judy barks. They are so tiny. Sonia thinks that sugar gliders look like pigs (lol) which I would think the nose is the part that makes them look alike. Anyway, personally, I do think they are adorable. Judy's so lucky to have Marcus being her owner, he even thinks of bringing her round in his car when he's back here. Good papa Marcus!! There should be more of such pet owners, not only for sugar gliders but any other pets. However, there are still the existence of cruel people that do not take care of their pet but misuse their pets for making money (breeding) and abuses them when they get fed up or bored with their pets. Do visit SPCA when you guys have the time.

Personally I'm a dog lover myself but I'm currently staying in a place which is not appropriate to have a dog. However, I do have a min. poodle at home which is owned by my sis. Here's the picture of her.

I think Chinchilla is a cute pet but then, I won't adopt it if I have no idea on how to take care of it. Probably I'll have to learn more about it before considering even getting one. Hmm, who knows I may rare a chinchilla instead of a dog in the future when I have my own home with proper places for pets. If I would get a dog, I would like to get a min. schnauzer or maltese or even YOYO. You guys should be wondering, YOYO?!! Yeah, YoYo was my pet. She's the cutest, smartest, most understanding pet I've ever had. She's a mixed terrier and now, what's left is only a picture of her. (Those photos taken using film, before we even had a digital cam). Probably one of these days I've retake the picture and post it in memory of her. She passed away 2 years ago and my dad didn't even dare to tell me that. My family waited till I finished my mid term exam, afraid that it will affect my results :( So sad, I didn't even had the chance to tell her my last goodbyes. I miss her scent and her cuteness and her everything that I could remember. My family adored her too. *sigh* I hope she rests in peace now. Yoyo, I miss you!

Finally...

Finally... I'm done with my course,
I'm free from exams, assignments, reports,
I have proper rest, relaxation, fun, joy,
I have time to go shopping,
Most of all, finally I'm free from stress and pressure.

Three hard years had past but still, I have to wait till July 11th for my results to officially graduate from my course. Again, another new problem arise. I will have to plan and search for a new job. My very first job. I wonder what is it like to work with others? What is it like to hold much larger responsibility?

I sure hope my results are well this semester as I've really put in so much effort. All my assignments were considered not bad for this sem, so I hope I'll get better grades *winks* lol.